Who is God??!! What is God??!! Two questions that have been on my mind for quite sometime now... Why??!! 'Coz the way I see him is sooo radically different from the way I am supposed to...
At one point of time, I was a very "religious" n devout person... Would visit the temple everyday... write my sriramajayams and Om Ganeshaya namahas everyday... follow the routine of visiting the Ganesh temple on tuesdays, Hanuman temple on saturdays, the Infant Jesus Church on thursdays...because that was the day auspicious to that deity...or some such thing....
N somewhere down the line... I started questionning myself as to what God means to me??!! n from there started the beginning of a radical change in my views of God and prayer n the like... n in fact, if you ask me, now is when I really feel I am closer to understanding Him...
Now, I dont really pray to him desperately asking Him to make this happen and not make that happen n give this n not give that.........Its more like... "Hi God!! Looong time... really sorry couldn't make it...but you understand right?!!" or "Happy Birthday God! Not gonna ask u for anything 'coz its ur day!!" or "U know wats best for us.. so jus hold our hands and walk us through" or the various thank yous for the million odd things I need to thank Him for!!
N I truly love this feeling!! Of feeling that He up there is my best friend...one that understands me better than even I understand myself!! He's no more a punishing God...who's not gonna give me sthg...or take away sthg from me jus 'coz I din recite some shloks or visit him at the temple!!
'Coz now He's God...my own God!!my bum pal!! n u don need to necessarily do things to please ur bum pal...Ur jus thankful they're there!! n thats how I would always want it to be...even if maybe I come across as a person who almost has no religious beliefs!!
My bum pal knows better than that... n I love Him!! :)
